greater things are yet to come.

I remember the first time, and the last.
I remember the feelings for both, and how different they were.
But yet how similar they were as well.
I need to fight away these demons that keep pounding in my mind
that i'm not good enough for anyone, especially not for you.
Why can't my self esteem be boosted up a notch?
Oh we have so many memories together;
some of them fill my walls
but pictures can't do justice of the real thing
they can show your face,
but what they can't show
is the beauty beyond that face
beyond that smile
beyond those brown eyes.
that beauty
is what caught me.

you show me life.
you show me the reason to continue mine.
so many struggles, so many opportunities that has passed
to take the easy way out
but you were there to show me another way;
which added to that beauty behind your eyes
behind your smile.
that permanent smile.
my heart sinks every time i see your face without a smile
because quite frankly
i'm smiling at this moment just thinking about you
and how much we've grown together and individually
that scares me for our future
but my heart aches of happiness for the excitement of it as well.
like the pictures hung on these walls,
these walls i stare into every night,
the words i say now can't do justice for the real feeling
the real emotion that consumes me
the real emotion that you make me feel
by just thinking about you
or by looking up and seeing your smiling face look right back at me.
the real thing is always better.